Fanmix - "Heaven's Not Enough"

[kitsu84]

Title: Heaven's Not Enough (aka "Salvation and Corruption")
Fandom: Supernatural
Spoilers: Through episode 4x10; Heaven and Hell
Characters/Pairing: Dean and Castiel
Tracks: 12 (runtime: 55.3 minutes)

Dedications: To breakinporcelan for being awesome (happy birthday, bb!). To tracy_loo_who for being one of the greatest fanfic writers out there when it comes to Dean/Castiel. And finally, to zed_pm for being the greatest friend a girl could ask for.

Notes: I hadn't originally planned on doing another mix until after the first of the year. But after being hit with the emotional trauma of loosing someone dear to me, I had to loose myself in something - something that would help me deal with the pain, along with the guilt. And this mix, here, is the result of that grief.

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Prologue: Destiny - Naoki Sato (Instrumental)
"A call to arms; the Winchester brothers deal with the dark destinies which lie before them..."

Remembrance Day - God is an Astronaut (Instrumental)
"After spending four months in Hell being tortured, along with being forced to take part in horrific atrocities, the eldest brother is resurrected by one of God's Heavenly warriors. The savior's name: Castiel."

Send Me an Angel - Zeromancer
Open fire on my burning heart
I've never been lucky in love
My defences are down
A kiss or a frown
I can't survive on my own

Heaven Coming Down - The Tea Party
With nothing to do you'd waste away
Obscure in exile
They've witnessed the times
You've gone astray
Whose fault? now you're thinking...

Haunted - Poe
There's always a way
Here in November in this house of leaves
We'll pray
Please, I know it's hard to believe
To see a perfect forest
Through so many splintered trees
You and me
And these shadows keep on changing

Endless Dream - Conjure One
It's all coming back to me now
That strange and almost endless dream
Where I was you and you were me
You opened up your eyes and I could see
That you were falling from the world
As aimless as a shooting star in orbit around me
Thinking I was somebody else
And terrified to look at me and see yourself, well...

Orchard of Mines - Globus
Don't taint this ground
With the color of the past
Are the sounds in bloom with you
Cause you seem like
An orchard of mines
Just take one step at a time

You Keep Me From Breaking Apart - Apoptygma Berzerk
I am only here because of you
And because you never left me behind
Saying thanks in my own way
I say it with a song that soon will fade away
You keep me from breaking apart

Maybe Tomorrow is a Better Day - Poets of the Fall
I'd stay the hand of god, but the war is on your lips
How can I brace myself for razor blades on whips
When everything with meaning is shattered, broken, screaming
And I'm lost inside this darkness and I fear I won't survive

Heaven's Not Enough - Steve Conte
And heaven's not enough
If when I'm there I don't remember you
And heaven does enough
You think you know it
And it uses you

Grace Descending - God is an Astronaut (Instrumental)
"With all that has happened, will the angel choose to fall?"

Epilogue: Destiny (Piano Version) - Naoki Sato (Instrumental)
"Where do we go from here?"

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Comments

[tracy-loo-who.livejournal.com]

Okay, I've had a chance to listen to it properly!

-- THE TEA PARTY. Oh god, it's been so long since I've heard them and this song, and I liked it before, but now, with all this meaning and context behind it, it's amazing.

-- I've never heard of Globus before, if you can believe it. I can't believe it, this is only one song by them but it's going to be one of those songs I put on repeat and listen to over and over again for hours at a time, I can already tell. That drives most people nuts, I know, but I'm like that about certain songs. I love this one, so so so much; it's instantly become one of my favorite songs. ♥!

-- Both versions of Destiny have pretty much the same effect on me! ♥ The piano is especially heartbreaking in its slow, quiet inevitability. God, I need to find the sheet music for this and learn how to play it. !!!

-- God, I can't even talk about "Maybe Tomorrow is a Better Day" because god, the lyrics, the beat, his voice, Dean and Castiel, this is so perfect.

-- "Heaven's Not Enough", too. Oh, Castiel. I wish I'd been listening to this song yesterday while writing that fic, I'm convinced it would have turned out better. As it is, I think I understand about you listening to this mix while reading it! This song in particular captures Castiel in a way that just takes my breath away, bb.

-- The words "Grace Descending" did something to me before the piece even started playing, though I'm not sure what. And then it did start playing and it was perfect.

-- All the other songs are amazing too, THIS WHOLE MIX IS SO AMAZING in a way I can't even describe. It tells their story beautifully.

You are absolutely amazing, Ilusm! And thank you again! Now that I've actually experienced this I am even more floored, omg. <333333333333333333333!