gazing through the looking glass;

Hello thar. How's everybody doing? I'm alright, for the most part. Insomnia is still kicking my ass. I went to bed at 4:00 AM this morning, and I was back up at 7:00 because I had to drive with my mother to Winston-Salem for her doctor's appointment. It appears as if she's going to have to endure sugery for the third time in 12 months. Thankfully she's not going to be put to sleep this time, which is a relief. She always wakes from the procedure puking her guts out, so it's great to hear that she's not going to have to deal with that this time around. 

As for me, well... I feel like crap. I've got a headache that's equivalent to having your head smashed in with a hammer, and it looks like it's going to be another long night. I'm still hesitating where the medication for my insomnia is concerned. 

I'm also feeling slightly bitchy, which is due to the fact that I've been hearing about fans who've decided to hate Castiel after the intense scene he had with Dean in last night's episode. WTF? Dean was the one who was out of line - not him. Those who were unable to see that seriously needs to give that episode another go. I've watched it twice, and I've come to the same conclusion both times. Dean was being a smart-ass - which was brazing considering the fact that Castiel was the one responsible for saving his ass from the pit. I did love the way Castiel handled him though; he completely put Dean in his place, and he didn't even raise his voice to do it - not once. 

However, despite all of that, the following video posted by samdeanfetish  at spn_castiel  made my day a little brighter:



That hypnotizing voice, combined with those striking eyes and that amazing hair...

I've also discovered something that amused me. Have any of you Castiel fangirls out there listened to the NIN song, Vessel? If you listen to the words and imagine the song being sung from the pov of Castiel's vessel, it sounds dirty. When I listened to it today during the long drive, I actually grinned deviously, and played it repeatedly. I can so see myself shipping Dean/Castiel/Vessel in the near future. I'm perverted like that.

Here are the lyrics. Judge them for yourselves:

I let you put it in my mouth
I let it get under my skin
I let you put it in my veins
I let you take me from within

They tell us what we can and cannot do
Same thing we have heard 100 times before
Well, I put you inside of me
But none of that matters anymore

My God, can it go any faster?
Oh my God, I don't think I can last here
My God, Can it go any faster?
Oh my God, I don't think I can last here

I am you and you are me
We will never be alone
I have finally found my place in everything
I have finally found my home

I can leave all the past behind
I can see right through the whole façade
I'm becoming something else, Yeah
I am turning into God

My God, can it go any faster?
Oh my God, I don't think I can last here
My God, can it go any faster?
Oh my God, I don't think I can last here
(repeat)